Idea for a short story

In the army, on a mission in a devastated country with refugees and uncooperative locals, an officer questions his own power. He holds interrogations, threatens and manipulates the civilians as well as his own troops. His every day is gloomy because it’s actually a hard work. His unit doesn’t have enough resources, so he has to confiscate civilian property. His unit is also severely undermanned, so any serious threat would wipe it out. Thus he has to do a very good job in preventive actions and reconnaissance. Violating the rights of prisoners is the only way. Also, only if he acts like this, the local rebels and criminals will fear him. It helps that he doesn’t see much human in the indigenous population. All of them are ugly, aggressive and do not know compassion. But since he only interacts with them, and his sergeant and his troops, he soon becomes like that too. Only speaking in swear words, combining the local dialect and the language from his country, performing corporal punishment. He just wants all this to end, and to return to his home and his family. And then he meets this beautiful local woman. He sets out to get her for himself, which puts a serious threat on the whole unit in the end. This is the only time when he ignored the strategical planning and tactics in favor of his personal feelings. He hadn’t done so for the feelings of mercy or for humanistic ideals, or for human rights and equality, for friendship or inspiration. All these feelings he discarded long ago, and even though he had a chance to show them mercy etc., now he is in the near death situation because he choose to show them lust as the only trait of his personality that survived. Maybe if he risked for a better ideas before, things wouldn’t be so bad as now. In a fierce fight, he survives till the reinforcements arrive. The woman is prosecuted as a war criminal. It is not clear what is her role in this, but the officer suddenly does not have the courage to visit her in the cell. He goes home psychologically incapable of talking to women.

 

Speeds you can hardly comprehend

I want a hamburger.

I want the window in my office to shamefully expose how ugly I am when I study at midnight.

I’m within one word from the final showdown. And I don’t know what that word is. Once I find it, I can pretty much say that I broke the system here in California. That I’m no longer afraid to be alone. It will be easier later on. To start is the hardest part.

I’ve taken insane courseload. I’ve stopped cleaning my room. I ignored most of my friends for weeks. I can say I’m pushing myself to the limit, so that all my pride and self respect will be buried. That will set me free. I already feel I’m much more secure about any social situation. I just don’t care about the outcome. I do what I want. But sometimes I’m just too slow. I wait while others finish talking, and it takes forever. I need speed. I only have like 2 seconds to make a decision, when it comes to real thing. In 2 seconds I must act, in 1 minute I must forget it and be ready for the next one. That’s the timing.

And I still don’t know the word. Is it hamburger? Hamburgueso? if I say that, I’ll just make a fool of myself. Not exactly what I want, but not bad. I want jokes and implications. Also lies, maybe. There are so little jokes out there. So, lies, jokes and implications it is. Think fast. I don’t have any for now. I’m afraid of getting out in the street in rush hour without them.

Educated horses

My very first post in English! Right after coming here to Caltech. Seems so long ago…

This is a story that will give you a thrill. We have five orders of magnitude to chase in neurobiology sensing. And there are scattered light hologram-based devices that can focus inside non-transparent tissue. Quantum optics is really pushing the field forward, though there is not really mush quantum in this invention. I would like to propose an error-correcting cat state. Such states are really easy to collapse, one local measurement and it’s gone. I’m sure if you shine a lot of lasers on the cat it can be in a real badass quantum state. Some matrices may have gapped spectrum well outside the realm of quantum physics. What would topological classification mean for them? I’d like to start with rate matrix in Markov process. Really big matrix. Guess they all belong to the same class, but if you add a symmetry.. Finally, there is this new tensor category language which i’m not friends with. Do you wanna ride? lol